Girl With The Curls

Girl With The Curls
Observations of a Quixotic Femme Noire __One Percent - 1%__ Warrior-woman; a Valkyrie. I'll always be yours. Always...and never.



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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Dust In The Wind – Kansas; Point of Know Return
I close my eyes only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams pass before my eyes a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Now, don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, and all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind, everything is dust in the wind


Got rear-ended again...last night. I'm very sore, headache. The boy has a bruise on his chest from the seatbelt. Both of them are feeling soreness in their chests; when they breathe and have coughs. I'm glad I was in the Volvo, the trunk won't open and the driverside light panel is shattered, but that's it. The truck (again!) that hit me is FUBAR - the hood and fiberglass front-end is ugly. Makes very true the saying "can't hurt steel".
ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast
Quickie: Working with people who aren't as sharp as you is a challenge -- be tolerant.
Overview: A family member has wonderful news -- serious, but ultimately wonderful. If you're worried about how it's all going to turn out, don't let it show. They need your positive energy and your support.
Sister is back in town. She wants to stay for good. Her dog is the cutest and got along swimmingly w/Stazzi. I'm hurtin' but wanted to catalog events.
Taurus
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You're a rock -- the sturdy, steady heart of your family, just like the Sun is the heart-center of our little corner of the galaxy. So now, when someone you love has something on their mind that they don't feel comfortable sharing with just anyone, they'll be absolutely sure to come to you first -- and you'll be just as sure to go all out to help keep them on track.

holla@me


Thursday, October 20, 2005
Mother Earthly Cleansing
Been watching a show w/kiddies about the Iron Age. Very cool. A Druid made a sweat-lodge and heated the stones and the clan had a sweat. I miss sweating. Of course I am used to the Native American tradition but it didn't seem that much different at all. I so miss it. Where we live, we aren't allowed to make an open bonfire...but I have been looking into a few things. We have an outdoor fireplace - I could set that up as the fire pit for the stones. All of the trees surrounding the house, I could find a private place to bow a few boughs and place blankets over to make the lodge; a tarp over it all for waterproofing. That would be a fun place for the kiddies to use as a fort when we're not using. I think I could do it. I really miss sweating; getting closer to the Earth, my roots; cleansing my body mind and soul. It is an unbelievable way of achieving all of that - very spiritual. Samhain is coming up too...

holla@me


Thursday, October 13, 2005
Double-digits and now...
Another milestone. The boy asked if The Toothfaery was real. I asked if he really wanted to know? "Well, do you put the tooth under my pillow at night"? HA! Easy answer! "No", I said. He continued wondering if it were we that took his tooth and put money underneath his pillow at night? "Yes", says his father. Wow! He was direct! Later, he asked me if that was a bad thing? "HAHAHAHA - NO"! LOL
Very tired last night. Went to be earlier than ever - 2200. Li'l Man was still up - contemplating. Dad gave Boy a dollar and asked for his tooth. He absorbed that; got a tad misty. I told him that I believed in the Toothfaery for a long time. That's why I continued the tradition, because it was magical. He said thanks for that AND for tellin' him 'the secret'. I mentioned that I was older than him still believing in the Toothfaery. We all hugged & kissed; you're welcome. Now, time for bed. He was out within 15minutes.

holla@me


Monday, October 10, 2005
the people that we love: bush; golden state
Speed kills coming down the mountain :: Speed kills coming down the street :: Speed kills with presence of mind and :: Speed kills if you know what I mean :: Got to feel - woke up inside again :: Got to feel less broke more fixed :: Got to feel when I got outside myself :: Got to feel when I touched your lips :: The things we do to the people that we love :: The way we break if there's something we can't take :: Destroy the world that we took so long to make :: We expect her gone for some time :: I wish her safe from harm :: To find yourself in a foreign land :: Another refugee outsider refugee :: How's it feel she's coming up roses :: How's it feel she's coming up sweet :: How's it feel when it's all in spite of you :: How's it feel when she's out of your reach :: The things we do to the people that we love :: The way we break if there's something in the way :: Destroy the world that we took so long to make :: We expect her gone for some time :: I wish her safe from harm :: To find yourself in a foreign land :: Another refugee outsider refugee :: What happened to you

I don't think many, if any, guys still have respect for a woman after cheating. I think women can - but that is all in the woman. I think it's easier for guys not to respect because of all the permissible sexism and objectivism Society is OK about. From past experience, I've noticed it isn't until a woman is gone that it's realized, oops shouldn't have done "that". Whatever the "that" is that makes her leave. "That" specific to her though - maybe another her will be OK with "that".

testosterone: bush: sixteen stone
i'm a man :: i'm real proud of my manhood :: i like to smoke :: ten thousand cigarillos :: eight ball :: i could climb any fountain :: i never cry :: i only bawl when i'm losing :: and i've never been wrong :: never been wrong :: i'm looking so good :: looking so good

got a big gold gun :: got a big gold gun :: and i guess you could say :: i'm real full of it :: i'm real full of it :: i'm real straight :: you wanna see my peccadillos :: hot dog 7:30 every morning :: and i'm big into war :: big into war :: big into war

i am a whore :: i am a whore

got a big gold gun :: i shave with Gillette :: i shave with Gillette :: and i'm patting my back :: patting my back :: got a big gold gun

holla@me


Just a taste of what can be found on the 'net...Legal objectification of women...It's OK to think it as long as you don't say it within a "ho's" earshot.
MATURE HOUSEMAID ENJOYING HUGE YOUNG COCK - click to see more...
MOTHER DAUGHTER FUCK .COM - Imagine how great it would be to fuck two generations of sluts with perfect tits!
KATHY DOES BLACKS .COM: Unbelievable acts of interracial perversion - enter here...
EXWIVES: Newly divorced, these girls want REVENGE and they're getting in the naughtiest ways they can think of. See them getting revenged on their husbands! - click here for the action...
KARA'S ADULT PLAYGROUND - I need you to fuck my tight asshole! - click here...
GIRLS GETTING LAID BY HER DAD'S FRIENDS - click here...
YOUNG DIRTY SLUTS - enter here
INNOCENT TEEN WHORES FORCED TO HAVE ABSOLUTELY BRUTAL SEX ACTS! - click here now...
FREE FACEFUCK GALLERY: Click Here To Find Someone To Fuck In MARYLAND Or Anywhere In The USA
BIG COCKS SPLITTING TINY PUSSYS

I try to watch these things. I want to understand the appeal. Can a male respect any female - the "steady/girlfriend/wife" OR the one that is called a "facefucked babe"? Well, Kathy and Kara want it apparently. I mean, it works better that way - derogatory comments don't sting as much if it's on one's terms. Now, I wonder, what are my terms? I've closed that side of myself because I see that it isn't an integral part of my soul, however, it seems to be for men. I want to know how it feels to just give into any and every sexual desire that strikes me at any given moment. Will it make me feel powerful? Will it make me respect men more for what they give to me? Will I become numb to the barrage of sex laid before me? I do wonder. It is only a matter of opening that door and allowing myself. So much of myself that I've sacrificed because I thought it was the right thing - a way of showing trust. Now I realize that trust doesn't really mean shit. People are only honest when they see it as a means to get what they want - to assuage someone else's intuitive vibrations...

holla@me


Went to Ocean City last weekend. Fun. Endless Summer Cruisin' - people showin' off their classic cars. Someone made the comment that American's love their cars. I've noticed that many countries like American's cars. Very cool. The care taken and effort shown to keep these cars that are 30 - 50+ years old.

holla@me


Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Again, I don't believe that Astrology is "true"...I mean come on, it's saying the stars are able to predict your life's events; but there are those times when the readings are dead-on...
ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast
Quickie: Emotional intensity can be uncomfortable -- but holding back may be a mistake.
Overview: There aren't too many people brave (or foolhardy) enough to challenge you -- and if anyone should know better, it's your partner. Emotions are funny things, though. They're totally unpredictable and even more spontaneous. Prepare to do battle. Just in case
Taurus
Daily: You've been doing some long, hard thinking, you've got plenty to say, and it's all quite intense. In fact, you're also up for a bit of detective work, even -- no, especially -- when it comes to an intimate relationship. Now, because this is an intimate relationship, someone may erroneously think they 'have you where they want you.' Of course, you'll be the person in the perfect position. If you want to be fair, mention that at the outset of the conversation. Or not ....

holla@me


Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Me Poem
When consumed by my private hell,
I secretly go into my shell and
though I look the same outside,
inside I work to calm the tide...
A-

Getting better; workin' on it; have been pretty much on point w/my "gut" feelings - no real surprise there.
Receptive; listening & hearing; realization; seemingly a want to please me / hold me/ love me/ trust me/ obey me - of course all to my liking.
Been ruminating - wondering if I'm doing the right thing for myself - for us.
Fool me once, shame on you
Fool me twice, shame on me
Does that mean this last chance makes me STUPID?
Oh I hope not.
What is taken for weakness in a woman is exactly what is her strength. It is undervalued, unappreciated and unrespected. It is taken for granted and seen as soft. Do people not understand that if it weren't for this enduring quality of endurance & loyalty & power, individuality would never find cohesion with others?
I feel myself getting hard and not wanting to share my strength anymore. I need it for myself - for my kids. Too many trying to suck it out, take it by coersion and force, wear it for their own like a wolf in sheep's skin. My faith has already waned; just don't believe - seen too much; know too much. One more time and then I'll shrink my sphere.
See me / Feel me / Touch me / Heal me

holla@me





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