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Sunday, July 31, 2005
Whoa! This is me spot-on. Weird, horoscopes usually always get me wrong... Taurus Daily extended It's not often when those of your sign aren't feeling confident. That alone might mean you'd be tough to get along with, but you're also far too genuine and approachable to hang that or any other natural gift over anyone's head. When someone does need to take charge, you won't be shy about stepping up. If it's to defend someone or something who can't do it for themselves, you can be positively formidable. Good luck to anyone who gives you a reason to take charge now. Sis is in town today for the week because... Been over my folks house...I'm just stopping in to type this because had to bring & wait for Guin's friend's mother to pick her daughter up. Had Maryland steamed crabs....oh yummmm...I love crabs! Bro coming home tomorrow. I am excited apprehensive relieved... I hope it works to the good. Libra Daily extended (by Astrology.com)At certain times, it's perfectly safe to give over care of your belongings to the powers that be. At other times, it's not. This is one of those times when keeping very close company with the things that you hold most dear wouldn't be a bad idea -- especially if you're traveling and you'll need what you've packed as soon as you arrive. This is one of those moments when carry-on luggage is less of an inconvenience than it seems to be when you're lugging it aboard. Leo Daily extended (by Astrology.com)The universe has a big day planned for all of us, full of unexpected arrivals, surprise messages and at least one last minute turn-around. You may not be tickled about at least one of these situations, especially if it happens to involve a certain person you've been close to, but you'll need to put on a happy face for that event and for the rest of them, too. If anyone can, however, it's theatrical you. Do it to it. holla@me Saturday, July 30, 2005
Foul-mouthed British parrot banished by embarrassed keepers - That macaw is a trip. Amorous couple sparks rescue drama - They had fun in their boat! Plumber takes a leak, doesn't fix it - Yo! This muthafucka is nasty. Carburetor breast fantasy wins bad writing contest - Heh-heh, I got hot! holla@me
Joining the ranks...I have a mobile phone now. OOOOOOh, we went shopping @ Goodwill. We found cool stuff. I was able to find the tight jeans I've been searching for. I knew going to a vintage shop or second-hand shop would bear excellent results. I actually found 4 pairs tight, 1 xtra-wide straight leg and 1 stretch that looks pretty good. As much as I don't like stretch jeans, I can see/feel why they are so popular - you "kinda" get the look of the tightest jeans but you don't have to work to get into them and there is no pressure or constriction from wearing the jeans. That is the part I don't like. I am sure that is EXACTLY why women like them though. Also found some very nice tops, blouses and tees. Found The Afghan Whigs CD - Gentlemen and Journey's Greatest Hits and a few others. Found a retro plate made in `73 and vintage 2-piece pictures. holla@me
Interesting in an expected-and-typical-way-for-me kinda way *grin*... ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: So you wasted some time today. So what's the big deal? Don't think twice about it. Overview: You're not usually all that chatty, but when you feel strongly about something, you'll go on about it -- at length. Anyone who tries to interrupt you will soon learn what it's like to pursue a truly futile cause. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You've got an awful lot to say now, and you won't care at all what someone else thinks of it -- or of you, either, once you're done speaking your piece. The good news is that you'll be so glib, witty and disarmingly clever that even if they didn't agree with you to start with, anyone who hears you state your case won't be able to help being on your side. So go ahead -- it's time to say what needs to be said. Libra Daily extended (by Astrology.com)It's never been your style to go anywhere solo -- no matter where 'it' happens to be, or what you happen to be doing when you get there. At the moment, while you won't want to cancel the plans you made, you may feel the need to be with someone other than the person you'd made those plans with. It's not an enviable position to be in, but it might be better to spend some time away from them right now. holla@me
Thinking... what I wore on my walk Thursday night/Friday morning: over-sized relaxed fit Levi's; olive green, short-sleeved, V-neck silk-knit top; very old K-Swiss; YMI hat pulled down low. heh, I'm not the dress to impress type when going on my walk...it's business. holla@me Friday, July 29, 2005
OH MY!!! 'Beautiful' Web site is only skin deep LOLOL: ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Who is just dripping with hot-stuff appeal? You, that's who! You are hot stuff! Overview: If you're feeling it now, you'll show it -- and not quietly, either. No, if it's on your mind or in your heart, it will be quite obvious to the world, not to mention the person closest to you. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)First thing this morning, you really ought to decide what to give them -- 'them' being your sweetheart, best friend or whoever it is who's been putting up with you lately, no matter what you've dished out. You know it hasn't been easy, you know what they'd like and you know they deserve it. Be nice. Your feelings are going to be obvious anyway. Might as well be sure it's the good ones they remember. Hmmm...so many Libra, I know. Libra Daily extended (by Astrology.com)The long-distance travel bug hasn't just landed in your vicinity. It's set up shop in your imagination, igniting an insatiable urge to get to that place you've always wanted to see. So at the moment, getting there is the most important thing in the world to you. Fortunately, you know when to go, and exactly the right person to go along with you, even if you present the offer to them as quickly as it occurs to you. holla@me
Just got back from a brisk, hour long walk. I bought a new pedometer; it talks. I don't use that feature though...annoying. A male whistled at me going the opposite direction and then decided to turn his truck around and roll-up beside me to ask if I was ok; what I was doing tonight; if I needed a ride. Went ahead and told him I'm fine; going for a walk; thanks anyway though; good night. I remembered why I always walk facing oncoming traffic. Won't forget that again. Someone waiting at a red light listening to Superman - Eminem; The Eminem Show, heehee. The walk was fairly uneventful. 1:00hr 6853 steps 3.13mi 292Kcal holla@me Thursday, July 28, 2005
N.Korea talks to stretch to day four, gulf remains - Who is the U.S.A. to tell other countries what they can and can't do? OPINION North Korea Talks: Regional side effects - "Now that North Korea has returned to six-party talks, the question remains, will the Bush administration continue to watch Pyongyang arm without trying to do what South Korea and Japan think just might get it to stop: sustained diplomatic give and take?" holla@me
IRA says ceasing all armed activity in N.Ireland "...But, mindful of a string of previous broken IRA promises, politicians cautioned the pro-Irish guerrillas would need to match words with action. ..." or inaction though I do comprehend the meaning. British Police Flood Trains and Buses "...Exhausted police faced their greatest challenge since World War II. ..." wow with my country being nothing BUT 'involved' - in everything it seems - I could be all ignorant and say, "isn't it just a little search?" holla@me
It was strange. Whilst watching TV, program was interrupted to show shuttle Discovery prepare and take off. It was like I was in 3rd grade again when the teacher wheeled an ancient TV into the classroom and we watched the "Space Shuttle Program Begin with Launch of STS-1: Shuttle Columbia". I know it is because of the "Shuttle Columbia and crew lost during entry 16 minutes before landing 1 Feb. 2003". Course, same thing happened when "Shuttle Challenger- Explosion 73 seconds after liftoff claimed crew and vehicle in1986. Shuttle flights halted while extensive investigation into accident and assessment of Shuttle program conducted." Anyway, the Discovery take-off last Tuesday looked good to me! LOL But apparently there was some foam shedding and Debris may have hit space shuttle's wing. I'm so glad that NASA Says Discovery Looks OK to Fly Home. But now, Shuttles to be grounded after foam fault found and Shuttle Grounding May Cause Layoffs. Still...I wonder where the dough is gonna go? holla@me
*yawn* The calm before the flurry of activity that seems to ebb and flow... ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Who says decadence isn't dashingly, daringly, devastatingly doable? It is in summer. Overview: You're patient, understanding and difficult to rile. But once you're angry, you're equally hard to handle. Explain that to the person who, for some reason, seems intent on pushing your buttons. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Regardless of what the universe tosses your way or how suddenly it's tossed, you've always been much more liable to wait, think and consider what to do next than to react immediately. That's a trait that's come in handy more than once, but it won't do the job now. What's called for at the moment is the ability to act quickly and to be bold enough to make the consequences of those actions stick, both of which you definitely have covered. People that know me know how hard it is to get me really angry. If I am irritated it's usually for good reason; it would have to be a "stranger" or someone that worked to get me pissed. You wouldn't like me when I'm angry - I get green and these huge muscles and nothing intelligible comes out of my mouth...oh wait; that's the Hulk! haha holla@me Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Talked to lawyer...finding a good date for settlement conference. We'll be working uphill of course. The negligent driver is so much more protected than the injured party and that is frustrating as fuck! Lawyer says completely disenchanted w/medical system. I'm not surprised! I realized that 3 years ago. He says soft tissue damage hurts like a son-of-a-bitch! LOLOL AND 3 professionals gave him different advice each time. heh-heh so, we'll see how it goes... holla@me
How do I manage to do that? Called C to see how things were going. Apparently, she was going to be induced today (last e-mail I got was going to be very end of July)! Her doctor has to take care of something today so will be induced tomorrow instead. HA! No complications...both are anxious yet excited...still gonna be a boy...beautiful name...We talked for a long while about pregnancy and NEVER watch that show "Special Delivery" when preggers! haha Many other things besides and how we miss each other. It really was great working next to each other; I cherish her friendship. She's one of my 1% friends, not for _all_ the reasons I'm an alien - C thinks we're the few that ARE sane or normal or whatever! *grin* holla@me
I'm many things but NOT... All right, so last month while in DE w/Dude's family, there was a party. I was fine...was not drinking, had actually been walking Stazzi; borrowed John's CDMan, listening to Eminem... Of course, I was involved in the festivities, but I can only listen to country music for so long... Anyways...I got back and was heading into E&B's house; the door was ajar. Walked in a straight line to the door and knocked my left-side/shoulder into the doorpost. Everyone got quiet and I heard a few stifled chuckles/laughs. I bounced off the frame a few inches, changed my trajectory by millimeters and went through the doorway smooth as glass; like nothing happened. The "chuckles" got much louder. *grinning* I recalled this story to my mother. We got a laugh out of it. I told her that his family think's I'm a drunk or some shit like that. We both cracked up, tears streaming, as she shook her head and said, "oh no, you've always been like that!" I was nodding my head, "and me tellin' them that would just sound like a drunk's excuse!" We rolled! C falls, stumbles and trips too! We're in the same boat - innate knowledge in falling w/"grace"; never broken a bone; don't get embarrassed when falling; pick self up after falling b/c no one else is gonna do it; brush self off and keep going. haha...what else can be done? Not TOO Slow on the Uptake Took my & neighbor kids last night for snowballs. Had to take Volvo. Dude & band used it last and took down the back seats to stack equipment. When putting it back together, they haphazardly did so and a seatbelt and buckle were stuck under one seat. The spring-release to lift one seat would not disengage as the "pressure" from objects underneath strained it. I was getting frustrated and was trying to get it... the kids were watching and praying. I told them what the problem was and while doing so, the solution clicked in my head. DUH! dumb-ass! So, I sat on the seat and pulled on the release while easing off the seat and sure enough... I had an egg-custard w/marshmallow. ebullient holla@me
PROJECTS ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Whether you're writing limericks or dancing the fox trot, things are interesting. Overview: After all this quietude, you've saved up plenty of energy -- more than enough to let the world know that you're a force to be reckoned with now. Let your companions know you're ready to party. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You've just found a way to let go of what you've been holding on to, and you're more than just delighted about it -- you're relieved. You're also ready to show the world that someone who's held on to what you've had for this long isn't someone to be treated lightly. That goes for your own higher-ups and all other authority figures in general -- especially since this may well have been your way of infiltrating the ranks. I look around and see so much to do! I have a ton of little projects; a few huge projects; and other projects that I'm getting help or others need my help. Then...court dates are coming up. *sigh* I'm tired of _that_ lemme say. One had to get postponed last week...my lawyer strained a hamstring or something of the like...a major OUCH! and he was told bedrest by doctor. And my good friend C - her baby is due any moment! I'm very excited. I need to call her - like now! So much to do and I've not done...procrastination, no sense of urgency, it's my time schedule. heh! It's pretty bad - being used to always having a deadline (which I love that pressure) to having no deadline - I've become laissez-faire; which isn't 'bad' per se, but not my usual pattern of behavior. While I have gotten much accomplished, there are current projects and still more coming in! Hmmm, and my motivation is? What was it before? *thinking* Oh yeah! - Just do it! that was one. ummm...Nike? Be prepared for anything. isn't that a Boy Scout "thing?" Satisfaction in a job well-done. *retching noises* I can't stand a messy house. yes, yes. I get depressed w/a messy house. I LOVE Legos! They're awesome! I'll show the boy yet! Get my ducks in a row. Grin and bear it. Ya gotta do what ya gotta do. Get ON with it!!! heh Holy Grail I'm sure there's more...hmmm... Well, anything that stops me from burning through Book 6 will be good. Shit! I forgot all my other reading materials too! Ok, so I'm a busier chick than I thought. I think it's time to start making a list... holla@me Tuesday, July 26, 2005
God Damn it is hot!!! We hit 101 today. whew ... it struck me that he may be apprehensive in giving an answer because I might not like the answer... holla@me
Finished Book 5 last night...early this morning. Laughed about my dilemma: should I finish it and go to sleep or finish it and start Book 6? B- joked that I'd finish reading the last 50 pages in 2 minutes which of course got me thinking just how much time do I put into reading. So I timed myself. I won't mention the re-reading if I liked the turn-of-phrase or the slight pauses to stare into space and imagine the scene or interruptions. *wink* It took me 1hr 3min to read the final 50 pages...there are 870 pages total so that puts me at about close to 18 hours of reading for that book. *shrug* heh-heh, I have nothing to compare that to. I don't think it's fast or slow...just me. *smile* Watched Born Into Brothels last night - very good. Have eaten steak or some beef product 5 out of 7 days...bleaghhh. Feeling all bloated and heavy. Ok, bring of the veggies and hold the meat for a bit. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You're torn between two very strong impulses. One side of you wants to shout your news to the world. The other can't stand the thought of letting a soul know even half of what's going on inside you. Until you find a way to bring those warring factions to a happy compromise internally, do what you can to ensure that the battle isn't obvious externally. In other words, keep your chin up and your mouth closed. holla@me Monday, July 25, 2005
It amazes me still how close my kids are to me. When they were new, neonates, I would have them sleep with me. Even when putting them in the middle of my bed, they somehow managed to "scooch" their way to me while sleeping; closer and closer and I would edge away while sleeping so as not to squish them. Of course, I never squooshed them. What often happened is finding myself falling out of my bed! They are the same way. If we are taking naps together (got a king bed), I make it a point to get in the middle of them. That's how they want it anyway but I notice that even if we all are spaced "nicely" apart, when I wake up, they are pressed close against me on either side. If I am reading in the parlor stretched out on the love seat, they see me and make a bee-line to see what I'm doing and then they sit with me and I have to move a little here, adjust some there. Eventually, I am surrounded! When I get up with some effort, they look perfectly comfortable where I was. "We'll keep your seat warm," they say. It looks like they were there the whole time! Don't get me wrong...I love it! Their desire to be near me; to hug and cuddle and touch; just makes me feel so content. I knew that I wanted to be a mother when I was child. I didn't really know or think about the extra benefits and now that I do, I feel even more fulfilled as a mother. OK, enough fuckin' sappy shit for tonight. *chuckling* Nothing is sacred either! They expect me to be there for them, to answer any and all their questions. It is part and parcel of the "deal" raising children - no privacy; no boundaries; body is not your own; everything is a "lesson"; must be patient and understanding and paying attention even if annoyed or preoccupied; etc... Do I mind? Er, not much...I'd say about 2.5% minds. heh Still, it is worth it - at least to me. OK! That is REALLY enough fuckin' sappy shit for tonight. *grinning* holla@me
It sucks to miss a friend. I think of the different things that happen that I want to share and then get a deflated feeling in my belly... I'm used to it though. I know also that it is me getting back what I sometimes give to my friends. I "disappear" at times. To think about things, `cause things are so busy, just want to be left alone...the reasons are wide and varied. And I get sad when I think of my bestest friend -- how are you? where are you? get in touch. I miss you very much. Got new curriculum and teaching materials in - the three of us are excited about this. Maybe we'll be motivated enough to start tomorrow. I can't believe that `moopy and some of her gf's have already started to "play" school! Well, now she gets the real thing! And Li'l Man is itchin' to look through his Science materials. Oh yeah, and I got him a grammar CD...It's hard for me to explain sometimes the exceptions to the rules. holla@me Sunday, July 24, 2005
She's Always A Woman - Billy Joel; The Stranger Released: 1977 She can kill with a smile She can wound with her eyes She can ruin your faith with her casual lies And she only reveals what she wants you to see She hides like a child But she's always a woman to me She can lead you to live She can take you or leave you She can ask for the truth But she'll never believe you And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free She steals like a thief But she's always a woman to me Oh, she takes care of herself She can wait if she wants She's ahead of her time Oh, and she never gives out And she never gives in She just changes her mind She will promise you more Than the Garden of Eden Then she'll carelessly cut you And laugh while you're bleedin' But she'll bring out the best And the worst you can be Blame it all on yourself Cause she's always a woman to me She is frequently kind And she's suddenly cruel She can do as she pleases She's nobody's fool But she can't be convicted She's earned her degree And the most she will do Is throw shadows at you But she's always a woman to me She's Got A Way - Billy Joel; Songs In The Attic Released: 1981 She's got a way about her I don't know what it is But I know that I can't live without her She's got a way of pleasin' I don't know what it is But there doesn't have to be a reason anyway She's got a smile that heals me I don't know why it is But I have to laugh when she reveals me She's got a way of talkin' I don't know why it is But it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere She comes to me when I'm feelin' down Inspires me without a sound She touches me and I get turned around She's got a way of showin' How I make her feel And I find the strength to keep on goin' She's got a light around her And ev'rywhere she goes A million dreams of love surround her ev'rywhere She comes to me when I'm feelin' down Inspires me without a sound She touches me and I get turned around She's got a smile that heals me I don't know why it is But I have to laugh when she reveals me She's got a way about her I don't know what it is, But I know that I can't live without her anyway holla@me
Ok, anyone who knows me, knows there is NO way that I'll sunbathe! I don't think anyone should spend time in the sun to tan...play, work, whatever - do what ya gotta do...but never to bake and turn brown...ewww. ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: What's that, you say? You both love sunbathing? Good thing you found each other! Overview: You'll be especially drawn to the spiritual side of life now. That doesn't mean you'll be polishing up your crystal ball or conversing with entities from 'the other side,' but your antennae will be amazingly keen. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Your bonds with loved ones are especially important to you now -- so much so that you'll happily do whatever it takes to keep these bonds just as strong, even if that inconveniences you for the moment. In the process, you'll be paying attention to whatever your instinct, not your mind, tells you to do -- which means that friends and family who've always thought of you as the practical one may be quite surprised. Oh, well. It's good to keep them guessing. Now lately, I have been picking up "vibes" very well on my friends and family feelings and such. It's been working to mutual advantage for sure. Took the kids to see Charlie and the Chocolate factory...wasn't bad. Garrish yes, but it followed the book much better than the Gene Wilder version...used Roald Dahl's poems for the Oompah-Loompah songs. My dude's in the band YMI...they're in the studio this weekend. I'm very excited about that!!! Oooh, did I mention that I'm going to Anger Management 3 concert - 5 August? Emimem, 50 Cent, D-12... I'm totally jazzed about it! So I've been re-reading Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix before moving on to Half-Blood Prince...as is my usual. Dude is still surprised at how fast I can read. My dad mentioned that I am one of the only person's he knows that reads as avidly as I do. Heh, well I love reading, always have. Well, once I was able to read. Imagine being in 4th grade and reading a Stephen King book walking down a school hall. I freaked my teachers out at times. They also questioned my mother why she was letting me read such books. Ha! She said, I'll find a way to read them anyway, so she may as well just say OK. heehee...she was right! And it's not like it made me a "criminal!" I do that fine all by myself. My brother is coming home 1 August. I am so happy for him. I hope that we can work out our issues because I love him so much. That motherfucker is one of the smartest dude's I know. We're alike in so many ways, which is probably why we get at odds at times. But when we're "clicking"...it's magic. So cheers to an excellent productive convo that clears up the issues. holla@me Wednesday, July 20, 2005
A. Dale... May the road rise to meet you may the wind be always at your back the sun shine warm upon your face the rain fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again may God hold you in the hollow of his hand. holla@me
Woman oh Woman! So much going on right now. I don't know what happened. It's like I woke up sometime last weekend and all this clarity came about. Been feeling very peaceful, yet edgy and ready for anything...not like I'm spoilin' for a fight! (oh no, not at all) But I dunno: comfortable, dominant, introspective, quick, devilish, relaxed and humorous...hmmm maybe saying, "I'm at the top of my game, and I feel like that shit is NOT gonna change" is the best way to describe how I'm feeling right now. And it works because I'm tying up quite a few ends that needed tidying. Still much more to do...but progress for sure and THAT makes me feel like I'm getting my shit back together. I'm feeling a bit of the confidence back from before the accident...how I was. Then combine that with what I've been learning and allowed to awaken within and a new outlook on my goals...Phew! oh well...love me or hate me; do I give a fuck? *grin* Leo Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You've got a lot to look forward to, especially now. Business looks good, your relationships with your coworkers couldn't be any better, and you're about to find a way to make a pleasurable hobby turn into cash -- cash you didn't feel like you were working to earn. In short, life is good and getting better, and you have no complaints. How about sharing all those good feelings with someone who deserves them just as richly? holla@me Tuesday, July 19, 2005
ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: You're grounded. So set those two feet firmly on the sidewalk, and enjoy gravity. Overview: You've been thinking about going after a degree or certificate for a while now -- something that could help you to better yourself professionally. If you're in the mood to do it now, check it out. It's time. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)For some reason, you've been thinking a lot lately about either going back to school on a regular basis or just taking a class or two that will add to your already impressive resume. Of course, anything that you can do to add to your skills is a good idea, but if you happen to be in the mood to do it, so much the better. So while you have both the enthusiasm and a good reason to do it, why not at least investigate? holla@me
Artist: Talking Heads Album: Remain in Light - Song Title: Once in a Lifetime And you may find yourself living in a shotgun shack And you may find yourself in another part of the world And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife And you may ask yourself-Well...How did I get here? Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/after the money's gone Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground. And you may ask yourself How do I work this? And you may ask yourself Where is that large automobile? And you may tell yourself This is not my beautiful house! And you may tell yourself This is not my beautiful wife! Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/after the money's gone Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground. Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... Water dissolving...and water removing There is water at the bottom of the ocean Carry the water at the bottom of the ocean Remove the water at the bottom of the ocean! Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/in the silent water Under the rocks and stones/there is water underground. Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/after the money's gone Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground. And you may ask yourself What is that beautiful house? And you may ask yourself Where does that highway go? And you may ask yourself Am I right?...Am I wrong? And you may tell yourself MY GOD!...WHAT HAVE I DONE? Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/in the silent water Under the rocks and stones/there is water underground. Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down Letting the days go by/water flowing underground Into the blue again/after the money's gone Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground. Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... Same as it ever was...Same as it ever was... holla@me Sunday, July 17, 2005
http://www.tomcruiseisnuts.com/ That 60 Minutes interview...wow. I don't think I'm ever going to use the word absolutely to wholeheartedly agree again. One of my fave made-up words - fuckedupedness holla@me
There is nothing like waking up abruptly because your cat is kneading your tit so gettin' up to take a piss; moving to open a window and stepping into a nugget of shit from your fuckin' mutt dog and then cleaning _that_ up. So, I'm awake, take a shower and get to write it down as ineloquently as it was to experience. ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Get set to charm the heck out of everybody you meet. Who could possibly resist you? Overview: You're feeling spontaneous, generous and willing to extend a hand to anyone who needs it. That goes double for the one you love, who'll be able to get you to do their bidding with just one little glance. - HA! We'll see...*eg* Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)When you're feeling this positive, it's easy to see how those good feelings might be contagious. Go ahead and spend some time with the people you love. Make them laugh, pass out a whole bunch of hugs and be sure that they all understand that you'd do anything to make them feel good now. Oh, and don't be surprised if the person you love most teases you into doing their bidding -- not that you'll mind, of course. In all, it's going to be a romantic, happy day. - Yeah, like I said...we'll see. hmmm: Libra Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Much as you'd like to cut someone some slack -- for what's going to feel like the 900th time -- you're just about done passing out sympathy and understanding in their direction. Just be sure the frustration you're feeling toward them doesn't infiltrate any of your other encounters. You're set up for a lovely day, and an even better evening. Don't let them ruin it. Maybe you should just try to avoid them for a day -- or two. holla@me Saturday, July 16, 2005
Just got Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince today...release date is today. heehee...pre-ordered w/a deal. I love that shit! So, do I stay and "manage" the 6 children that are in my house and clean the house and all that implies? Or do I tell everyone to "deal" and park myself on the love-seat in the sitting room and devour the book? Decisions , decisions. Subject: Hi I bet Elvis will only eat boats if they're filled with peanut butter and banana's and deep fried in canola oil! heehee Sorry, the goof has come out to represent! A- holla@me
Just when do you let a child "go" into the world without holding his/her hand every step of the way? Li'l Man has a new friend that apparently can be a "menace." He's always been very respectful to me, my children and possessions so... He's being raised by his grandparents. He is very "pushy"; he'll bug the shit out of people to get what he wants. Well why is that? `Cause geriatric persons shouldn't be raisin' no freakin' kids! They give into him because they just don't want to hear the whining and it gets him outta their hair. Well, he loves coming over here...wonder why? heh So, I let my kids walk around the neighborhood. Hell, I walk all over this place! It is a nice enough neighborhood. Some streets are very busy; some aren't. Some areas are a little shady; some aren't...where we live isn't and we have a Neighborhood Watch of over 300! I remember bein' a kid and ridin' my bike anywhere and some places we shouldn't. I wasn't allowed to go out as young as my brother and sister were but that was because I was the first. I would watch them and we had a blast! When this boy is over, he wants to walk everywhere - to the park, just around the block; to his house and back. I'm cool wit' dat. Unfortunately, this boy's grandparents - grandmother in particular - has put into this boy's head ALL about molesters. This woman has told me she doesn't agree with me letting the kids walk around. Did I know this? Uh, no...but jeez! NaNa has told me all about the fact that there are over 63 child molesters in this area. Oddly enough, I looked up on the government database, rather than some "child protection" database, and there are 5 in the area...a 25 mile area. There are all kinds of people that are kid unfriendly all over the world. Unfriendly for different reasons. It is just how it is. I can only give my kids the tools to "protect" themselves. But honestly, I can't protect them from everything even though I want to. It is one of my fears that my children will be snatched and hurt in someway. IF I got them back, all the work to heal them; to cope...terrifying. But I can't live by fear. I want my kids to understand the dangers and to have a care and blah blah blah...they know - but I won't have them anxious and fearful. And I'm watching how this boy is being disobedient; looking for loopholes in the Rules. That tells me the Rules aren't effective...they need to be changed. A balance is necessary and disobedience must be addressed. Well, he behaves and is respectful here...and he loves to be here...maybe he's found balance. holla@me
ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Possession can be a good thing. But it's not so good when talking about people. Overview: If anyone can handle intensity, it's you. Your natural gifts for focus and determination are exactly what times like these call for. Someone who isn't quite so self-disciplined needs you to get through this. You ready? Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)You've definitely got your work cut out for you. It feels like every area of your life is demanding more and more of your time. Until clones are perfected, your only option is to keep going. Fortunately, no one is more determined to meet a challenge head on than you are -- but a tiny little break in the action is just what you need. Take a few hours to yourself over the next day or so. You know what they say about all work and no play .... holla@me Thursday, July 14, 2005
Sexual intercourse with me on top, and all the varied positions I enjoy, strengthens and tones the inner-thigh muscles better than anything else I've tried. Nice work out...they get sore after 1-1/2 days (like all muscles, of course)...if you can't have sex everyday, at least do it every other day. The muscles get worked and the soreness goes away...they feel so lovely - stretched and used. So, if not tomorrow...I'm scheduled for Saturday. hee singing holla@me
Watching The Last Waltz - documentary about final concert of The Band. Coyote; Joni Mitchell No regrets Coyote We just come from such different sets of circumstance I'm up all night in the studios And you're up early on your ranch You'll be brushing out a brood mare's tail While the sun is ascending And I'll just be getting home with my reel to reel... There's no comprehending Just how close to the bone and the skin and the eyes And the lips you can get And still feel so alone And still feel related Like stations in some relay You're not a hit and run driver, no, no Racing away You just picked up a hitcher A prisoner of the white lines on the freeway We saw a farmhouse burning down In the middle of nowhere In the middle of the night And we rolled right past that tragedy Till we turned into some road house lights Where a local band was playing Locals were up kicking and shaking on the floor And the next thing I know That Coyote's at my door He pins me in a corner and he won't take "No!" He drags me out on the dance floor And we're dancing close and slow Now he's got a woman at home He's got another woman down the hall He seems to want me anyway Why'd you have to get so drunk And lead me on that way You just picked up a hitcher A prisoner of the white lines of the freeway I looked a Coyote right in the face On the road to Baljennie near my old home town He went running thru the whisker wheat Chasing some prize down And a hawk was playing with him Coyote was jumping straight up and making passes He had those same eyes - just like yours Under your dark glasses Privately probing the public rooms And peeking thru keyholes in numbered doors Where the players lick their wounds And take their temporary lovers And their pills and powders to get them thru this passion play No regrets, Coyote I just get off up aways You just picked up a hitcher A prisoner of the white lines on the freeway Coyote's in the coffee shop He's staring a hole in his scrambled eggs He picks up my scent on his fingers While he's watching the waitresses' legs He's too fat from the Bay of Fundy From Appaloosas and Eagles and tides And the air conditioned cubicles And the carbon ribbon rides Are spelling it out so clear Either he's going to have to stand and fight Or take off out of here I tried to run away myself To run away and wrestle with my ego And with this flame You put here in this Eskimo In this hitcher In this prisoner Of the fine white lines Of the white lines on the free, free way holla@me
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Subject: Hello I was doing a keyword search - confident women... I'm sure you get complimented all the time about that pretty smile and those cute dimples but how many want to tell you to correct Intelligence in your profile? *grin* Ok, now that is out of the way...heehe Type back to me soon, A- his response: Hello, See that's why I love confident women. I spell like I'm in 6th grade. I'm such a child of technology and spell check. Thank you for the smile compliment. Hope to hear from you soon. holla@me
Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)If anyone knows how tough it is to keep the balance when it comes to maintaining a happy relationship, whether it's of a business, personal or platonic nature, it's you. So now that you've been faced with just that, it's easy to see how you'll be willing to go all out to make it happen. Fortunately, the universe has turned every possible traffic light in your way a brilliant shade of green, so you really don't have to worry about how you'll make your way. Just go! So, this week has been pretty interesting...not what I expected either. A male, trying to "charm" me, made a comment about my soft-shoulders. Of course, I started thinking about my shoulders...what adjectives would I place on my shoulders? defined, rounded, broad, lithe, muscular, strong...and when touched, you feel muscle and bone. Yeah, sure the skin is soft, but that is a connective tissue that is not quite the shoulders but their covering/protection. THEN, I started thinking about what about me is soft? My hair, breasts, maybe belly, bum in its relaxed state, and thighs. Another male decided to call me "little one." Boy, it's been a long time since I was called that! It has specific meaning to me. I asked why? My feet are small. Ok, I'll buy that, but little one...I have 2 feet and maybe it would have sounded strange to call me "little feet" but I would have understood what the fuck he meant. heh hmmm, maybe I'm being a little too literal. No, I don't think so; not really. Now, I know these were compliments...and I accepted them graciously. I guess that most women like to be looked upon in a way different than myself. I'm too much of a realist for my own good...well, when I want to be. holla@me Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Why - Annie Lennox How many times do I have to try to tell you That I'm sorry for the things I've done But when I start to try to tell you That's when you have to tell me Hey...this kind of trouble's only just begun I tell myself too many times Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words That keep on falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Falling from your mouth Tell me... Why Why I may be mad I may be blind I may be viciously unkind But I can still read what you're thinking And I've heard it said too many times That you'd be better off Besides... Why can't you see this boat is sinking (This boat is sinking this boat is sinking) Let's go down to the water's edge And we can cast away those doubts Some things are better left unsaid But they still turn me inside out Turning inside out turning inside out Tell me... Why Tell me... Why This is the book I never read These are the words I never said This is the path I'll never tread These are the dreams I'll dream instead This is the joy that's seldom spread These are the tears... The tears we shed This is the fear This is the dread These are the contents of my head And these are the years that we have spent And this is what they represent And this is how I feel Do you know how I feel? 'Cause I don't think you know how I feel I don't think you know what I feel I don't think you know what I feel You don't know what I fear holla@me
Tempted - The Squeeze I bought a toothbrush, some toothpaste A flannel for my face Pajamas, a hairbrush New shoes and a case I said to my reflection Let’s get out of this place Past the church and the steeple The laundry on the hill Billboards and the buildings Memories of it still Keep calling and calling But forget it all I know I will Tempted by the fruit of another Tempted but the truth is discovered What’s been going on Now that you have gone There’s no other Tempted by the fruit of another Tempted but the truth is discovered I’m at the car park, the airport The baggage carousel The people keep on writing And wishing I was well I said it’s no occasion It’s no story I could tell At my bedside empty pocket A foot without a sock Your body gets much closer I fumble for the clock Alarmed by the seduction I wish that it would stop I bought a novel, some perfume A fortune all for you But it’s not my conscience That hates to be untrue I asked of my reflection Tell me what is there to do Went out to happy hour w/a friend, Der. Haven't seen him in a while. Margarita's! A little tipsy. Good time. Productive conversation. We can almost talk about anything... Been keeping him informed of therapy. He feels that my therapist is "worried" about looking foolish with what he may or may not say because I'll "Google" it and throw it back at him later. I chuckled and said Nuh-uh, that's not how I am. He chortled at me and said oh yes that is exactly how I am! Ok...he may be right. lol But, it isn't only that, he says. This therapist respects me but still has to remain non-biased and impartial. It rings true because therapist tells me often that he likes how my mind works, among other things. When he talks to me he informs me this was a psych-workshop he attended and that is how he presents it to me. Says that he "puts" things out there directly rather than "sugar-coating" it because he thinks I "get it." Which is true, I do and if I don't...I ask for clarification. Der thinks he does this for his benefit, not mine. That I am challenging him and making him remember and brush-up on his schooling/training. Der thinks I'm scary intelligent...He's busted my balls because I haven't gone to college yet and he feels that I'm wasting my intellect. "You should be a scholar," he says to me indignantly. I just shrugged... Fade Into You – Mazzy Star I want to hold the hand inside you I want to take a breath that’s true I look to you and I see nothing I look to you to see the truth You live your life You go in shadows You’ll come apart and you’ll go black Some kind of night into your darkness Colors your eyes with what’s not there. Fade into you Strange you never knew Fade into you I think it’s strange you never knew A stranger’s light comes on slowly A stranger’s heart without a home You put your hands into your head And then smiles cover your heart Fade into you Strange you never knew Fade into you I think it’s strange you never knew Fade into you Strange you never knew Fade into you I think it’s strange you never knew I think it’s strange you never knew holla@me Tuesday, July 12, 2005
http://www.spineuniverse.com/displayarticle.php/article1692.html http://www.andoaston.com/mobilization.html http://www.largeheartedboy.com/massage/archive/2005/02/augmented_softt.html http://www.slackbooks.com/view.asp?slackCode=45694 ROFL...and this is what I've been telling my friends was a _massage_! My PT today set me straight and said that soft tissue *mobz* would make people run from the table. LOL...it's not that bad actually. Damn it is painful, but it's relative. If it's gonna get this body well, then pour it on. She reminded me to never have it feel worse than what it already does. I'll keep that in mind. holla@me Time – Pink Floyd; Dark Side of The Moon Much Thinking...necessary and insightful for my personal growth. Enantiodromia a transfer of leadership from conscious to unconscious; works this way: The more committed you are to your position, the more the opposite will begin to nudge you as a compensation. The function of enantiodromia is to put one beside oneself to come to know oneself in the full sense of the term. It is not a tool to suppress or repress but, in actuality, to control the whole range of one's capacities. Now, one can get too literal about this. The typical analyst, for example, decides that there must be a kind of conscious process of working through the opposites. Much thinking on the Transcendent Function - to open one's eyes at the center, to sense, think, feel and intuit transcendence and act out of such knowledge. inspiration, motivation, balance, initiative, focus, goals...Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day You fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for someone or something to show you the way Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today And then one day you find ten years have got behind you No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but it’s sinking And racing around to come up behind you again The sun is the same in the relative way, but you’re older Shorter of breath and one day closer to death Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way The time is gone, the song is over, thought I’d something more to say holla@me
DEAR ABBY: My husband and I expect our first child in three months. His mother is already pressuring us to let her baby-sit, and eventually have the child for summers and vacations. The problem is, her negligence and poor judgment while raising her own children led to them both being physically and sexually abused. She continues to be friendly with anyone who will be friendly with her, including the family members who abused her children. There is no way I'll ever let her be alone with my child. My husband supports my feelings. But we don't know how to tell her that her services are not needed or wanted without causing hurt feelings. -- SETTING LIMITS IN WISCONSIN DEAR SETTING LIMITS: When she asks to baby-sit, tell her nicely that you already have made other arrangements. Ditto for extended vacations. Explain that she's welcome to visit when it's convenient for all of you. However, if she insists on knowing why she can't take the baby, repeat exactly what you have told me. Your child's safety is more important than your mother-in-law maintaining the fantasy that her children's upbringing was normal. holla@me Sunday, July 10, 2005
Dungeons & Dragons was fun last night. Fudd is a cool cat. That's where we have our games and there is also a Magic game runnin' outta there too. He's been wondering about me for a while; not sure what kinda "girl" I am. He was happy that we got a moment to say more than 3 words last night. He's also told me that payment for us bein' there is that I give him a hug. lol...good think I like hugs! So we shot some shit and he told me that he decided that if I hang out w/Steve and Tony that I must be a cool chick (of course, it's unspoken that them hangin' w/ME makes them cool too! heh) and then asked me if I wanted to be part of the family and think about it because once I said yes, I couldn't back out. Well, I'm always one for a dare...ain't no shame in my game. He asked if I wanted Witnesses?...hmmm, getting interesting. oh yes, Witnesses are ALWAYS good to have around when not sure exactly what the initiation is. Fudd says, "Who, Steve and Tony?" "Hell yah! Perfect." Funny though, how many years ago did I have some of the gang exposing a few things during an amusing conversation... and I was wondering if they thought for one moment that I looked at them as fools or lost respect.... Hmmm, very doubtful as it has "almost" made us closer in some ways. Anyways...I'm now part of Fudd's Rabbit Hole Family...Witnessed an' all. And why were they all exposing they wives shortcomings? lol...I told them flat out, it isn't a wife thing, it's a spouse thing. And when they start on their spouses, I keep my mouth shut and try to bring some temperance to the descriptions. They bring up valid points about who they "saddled" with! But they made their choices. Who's perfect in this world? lol (good luck on that!) {You live with a motherfucker long enough and you see all their senior moments, brain-foos, FUBAR sitches...Lord you know everything! What do you love, like, put up with and just flat out hate? Compromise can only go so far. How many people do I know personally that got married even though they say THEMSELVES it was against their better judgement? WTF?!?} Apparently, they have a bet on the first one divorced. They HAD a bet on last one married...I wasn't included in that as I was the first...heh I told `em I wanted to be in that bet. They told me no because I hate my husband! ROFLMFAO!!! That is FUCKED-UP! lol I never said that SHIT! Dude my friend; I care for him; I want nothing but the best for him; yeah sometimes he drives me nutty...I know that I can bring that out in a motherfucker too. So, they said ok sure I can be in the pool. Then they said no sex w/X after divorce or ya'd have to pay back the bet double to everyone. I said that was bullshit - It was _known_ Strange! LOL They didn't budge on that one. Fuckers. Well, actually, that would probably be best. heh *nodding sagely* Yo, Yo. Check-it... Cleanin' Out My Closet - Eminem; The Eminem Show Have you ever been hated or discriminated against? I have. I've been protested and demonstrated against. Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times! Sick is the mind of the mothafuckin' kid thats behind. All this commotion, emotions, run deep as oceans explodin', tempers flarin from parents, just blow 'em off and keep goin', not takin nothin from no one. Give 'em hell as long as I'm breathin'. Keep kickin' ass in the morning and taking names in the evening, leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar as in they mouth. See they can trigger me, but they never figure me out! Look at me now, I bet you're probably sick of me now! Ain't you mama I'mma make you look so ridiculous now. I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! One more time... I said I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! I got some skeletons in my closet and I dont know if no ones knows it, so before they thrown me inside my coffin' and close it, I'mma expose it. I'll take you back to '73, before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD. I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple a months. My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunch. 'Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye. No I dont, on second thought I just fuckin' wished he would die! I look at Hailie and I couldn't picture leavin' her side. Even if I hated Kim I'd grit my teeth and I'd try to make it work with her at least for Hailie's sake. I maybe made some mistakes but I'm only human. But I'm man enough to face `em today! What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb. But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets out of that gun! 'Cause I'd have killed em, shit, I would have shot Kim an' him both, its my life. I'd like to welcome y'all to The Eminem Show. I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! One more time... I said I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! Now, I would never dis my own mama just to get recognition. Take a second to listen for you think this record is dissin'. But put yourself in my position, just try to envision, witnessin' your mama poppin' prescription pills in the kitchen. Bitchin' that someones always going through her purse and shits missin'. Going through public housing systems victim of Munchausen's syndrome. My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't. 'Till I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to your stomach, doesnt it? Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me, Ma? So you could try to justify the way you treated me, Ma? But guess what, you're gettin' older now and its cold when you're lonely and Nathan's growing up so quick, he's gonna know that your phony. And Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful. But you'll never see her, she wont even be at you're funeral! See what hurts me the most is that you won't admit you was wrong. Bitch, do ya song, keep tellin' yourself that you was a mom. But how dare you try to take what you didnt help me to get? You selfish bitch! I hope you fuckin' burn in hell for this shit! Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me? Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be. I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! One more time... I said I'm sorry mama! I never meant to hurt you! I never meant to make you cry! But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet! holla@me Friday, July 08, 2005
JACK KEROUAC BELIEF & TECHNIQUE FOR MODERN PROSE LIST OF ESSENTIALS Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy Submissive to everything, open, listening Try never get drunk outside yr own house Be in love with yr life Something that you feel will find its own form Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind Blow as deep as you want to blow Write what you want bottomless from bottom of mind The unspeakable visions of the individual No time for poetry but exactly what is Visionary tics shivering in the chest In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition Like Proust be an old teahead of time Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye Write in recollection and amazement for yourself Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea Accept loss forever Believe in the holy contour of life Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind Dont think of words when you stop but to see picture better Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge Write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures of it Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American form In Praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from under, crazier the better Youre a Genius all the time Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled in Heaven As ever, Jack [Kerouac] Jack Kerouac "Belief & Technique For Modern Prose: List of Essentials" from a 1958 letter to Don Allen, in Heaven & Other Poems, copyright © 1958, 1977, 1983. Grey Fox Press. holla@me
I don't understand...myself. Why do people care to have me as a friend? At this time I have a few people that want to know why I am "upset" with them; they want me to be their friend or they want our relationship to go back as it was. Why do they care whether or not I am a friend to them? I feel like maybe it is true...I don't let people in. In some ways, I want to be alone... Why do people give me "gifts"? A long time ago, I realized that I could get whatever I wanted out of people...very easily and with little to no effort. It didn't make me feel any better to receive anything using this method. It was too easy. I prefer to see what people will exchange with me of their own volition. It means so much more. When I say I only use my powers for good, this is one facet of my meaning. I knew a man once... He was French w/ a lovely name that rolled off my tongue and made his eyes sparkle when he heard it drip from my lips. A starving artist...he blew the horn. He was very pessimistic in outlook when I met him and it saddened me to watch him slowly get bitter as he realized that it was only friendship that could be allowed between us. We spent quite a bit of time together...eating take-out Indian cuisine on his mattress, on the floor, in his "living room" at his tiny-tiny apartment downtown. Accidentally spilled curry (my clumsiness struck again!) on the sheets while he explained how his country is racist against Blacks, though it is hidden. How he found it disgusting... A starving artist... He knew my favorite painter was VanGogh. His mother had sent him three lovely books and inscribed them to her son. He let me borrow them. When I went to return them, he told me to keep them as they were with their owner. Something made me feel there was more that he was giving and yet we never spoke about it. At times I think on him - wishing him well, hoping he is well...dreaming of his happiness and peace. But why? He isn't the only nor the first that has offered something and given freely to me. I am me - nothing special...well no more or less special than anyone else I would assume. Just a human being that sees things in a different perspective than most. I've always considered myself an old soul. Maybe I've touched more than I'll know in this frame of consciousness. It baffles me. holla@me Tuesday, July 05, 2005
ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: Whatever you're feeling, tell the people around you. If you don't, how'll they know? Overview: From the moment you open your eyes, you'll be not only prompted to tell the whole truth, you'll feel absolutely compelled to do so. Go for it, but be gentle on unsuspecting bystanders. Taurus Daily extended You possess a very particular type of honesty that's so straightforward and full of integrity it can often be intimidating. Don't ever let anyone tell you it's not the right way to be -- especially now. Situations today call for someone with the guts to push the envelope past the point of politeness -- to boldly say what no one else has the courage to say. If you can't do it, no one can. And wouldn't it be a shame to let a bit of dishonesty ruin a potentially lovely evening? holla@me Monday, July 04, 2005
Here I went thinking D&D was on Saturday...ditzy me...it's next Saturday! lol ambercyn's Daily Taurus Forecast Quickie: You may have trouble deciding any number of things. Confusion can create indecision. Overview: You're not famous for being the chattiest person on the planet. You are, however, quite well known for you ability to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. Expect that quality to be called upon soon. Taurus Daily extended (by Astrology.com)Two of your sign's most famous qualities will be called upon now, and while many others won't have what it takes to answer, you most certainly will. You'll need to silently listen while others are chatting away about absolutely nothing. And when you speak, speak the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Fortunately, those things come easily to you. Try not to be too smug as you watch others struggle to keep quiet about what they know -- or don't know. holla@me Saturday, July 02, 2005
Busy as HELL!!! *vbg* The kids each had a friend spend the night last night. I told them off the bat that I'm not gonna treat them like little kids - I know they're smart and I'll treat them like they treat me. Funny, of course my kids know and love that, but the boy that's Bren's age said, "I hate when people treats me like a little kid! It makes me feel like being a maniac!" His uncle told me to PLEASE, keep Bran in check and that if he acted poorly, I could get some duct-tape and wrap wrists, ankles and mouth up! lol You know that boy was really no trouble. Like I was worried! I mean, there was "kid stuff" a couple times...but that's nuthin'...no, all the kids were excellent. I took them to the grocery store and at first they were tryin' to run around. I explained that I'd leave the cart where it stood - at any time - and we'd leave; also that they can play when we're home; not while we were in a place of business. Besides, being loud, like I care about that!, they straightened up just fine after my li'l speech. Playin' in the pool; walks to the park and around the neighborhood; now walking to Bran's house for the day... Going to get ready to for D&D @ Fudd's. I was supposed to update my character but the e-tools that I was given doesn't work! Damn and I wanted to be prepared for today's session. Tomorrow, niece 4th b-day party and party at Steve's later. And Monday...family party at Red's. I do like being busy... PABLO CRUISE lyrics - "Love Will Find A Way" Someone, someone's got me wrong You thought that your love was strong Now you're feelin' like such a fool Poor you You're thinkin' maybe if you said goodbye You'll understand the reason why The love you had felt so cruel, um-hm Oh, but it's all right Once you get past the pain You'll learn to find your love again So keep your heart open 'Cause love will find a way Sometimes we all feel a need to change Our love we have to rearrange And move on to something new, yes you do Your dreams feel like they're fallin' apart You need to find a brand new start But you're almost afraid to be true to yourself Oh, but it's all right Once you get past the pain You'll learn to find your love again So keep your heart open 'Cause love will find a way Love will find a way Love will find a way [Instrumental Interlude] So now don't, don't be afraid of yourself Just move on to something else And let your love shine through Again yes 'cause it's all right Once you get past the pain You'll learn to find your love again So keep your heart open 'Cause love will find a way Oh, but it's all right Once you get past the pain You'll learn to find your love again So keep your heart open'Cause love will find a way holla@me Friday, July 01, 2005
Artist/Band: Shivaree Lyrics for Song: I Close My Eyes Lyrics from Album: Who's Got Trouble Giddy-up old boy it's time to go Vous les vous savoir the love below Brother, I've got more than you can take But more than I can do to stay awake I close my eyes So I Can dream of ways to keep you occupied So I Can lock you up we'll keep it classified Alright You're mine tonight, son When I close my eyes I can make you sorry when I want Find some other house for you to haunt Carry out your sentence in my head All I have to do is go to bed I close my eyes So I Can dream of ways to keep you occupied So I Can lock you up we'll keep it classified So right You're mine tonight son, when I close my eyes Hide and seek, yellow ducky Feeling weak or feeling lucky son Who's got milk, the baby's crying Shut 'em up, get 'em flying Little kiddies bought and sold And papa's got a brand new bag of gold Tonight I'll dream of ways to keep you occupied So I can lock you up we'll call it classified So rightYou're mine tonight love when I close my eyes holla@me |
