Observations of a Quixotic Femme Noire __One Percent - 1%__ Warrior-woman; a Valkyrie. I'll always be yours. Always...and never.



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It is like I'm being awakened. I've felt so deceptive of myself, regarding my observations and writing. I see now it was because I was writing froufrou bullshit! I am not inspired by putting on blinders and only seeing what is in front of me. I have to have meat...feel the blood on my fingers...tasting it on my tongue. (I need to get my ass some training and rope-in the rawness of this gift.)

I spoke to my mother last week. She sent me an e-mail too. We have agreed that counseling would be the best thing for us. What I said to her was I thought it was the healthiest thing she has said in a long time. She laughed, "I though you would say that."
She thought right.
She admits...currently mind you, who knows if it is genuine...that she has some part in our distressed relationship. I'm excited because before, she has only talked of how unnecessary therapy/counseling is. Denial. Let's see if we even get in the parking lot of a councelor.

B- and I talked too.
He's been depressed and it's been eating at him. We feel that some therapy would be helpful for him too. Mental illness does run in his family and he doesn't feel that just talking or just meds are helping him. I wish I could help but being a sounding board sometimes just isn't enough.

holla@me posted by MobiusRazor at 09:15