Observations of a Quixotic Femme Noire __One Percent - 1%__ Warrior-woman; a Valkyrie. I'll always be yours. Always...and never.



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B- and I talked a bit about his skill with guilt:
‘You know how frustrating that is. ‘Your father does that to people. ‘He’s smooth with it,’ I said.
B- added, ‘He does it intentionally, when he wants you to do what he wants.”
He said sorry and that he didn’t mean to make me feel guilty. ‘Maybe I do mean to do it,’ he offered.
‘Part of you must because you know which buttons to push to make me feel guilty and that is not an accident,’ I replied.
Please, be honest with me. Be real.
B- says he will work on recognizing and changing.
I want to change too. I don't want to disappoint the people I love. However, there is only so much I can do. And we all disappoint one another sometimes. I always feel guilty bringing something up with B- because he comes across as so fragile. My bestest friend says that is because he's learned even more from his father...passive-aggressiveness. She has told me I need to get it out because I put myself at the bottom of the list. She feels I'm getting a little lost or faded...something like that.


holla@me posted by MobiusRazor at 20:32