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I have a secret. I have a desire. I have a wish and promise to myself. I have to try. I want to accomplish my dream of being a writer. I don’t want to do some self-important gobbledygook or some whimsical fantasy world, although I enjoy unusual writings. I want to show the gamut of my own emotions. I’ve been reading Peter Straub (Houses without Doors and Magic Terrors) and Virginia Woolf (Melymbrosia and Orlando) and Lemony Snicket and soon Suzuki Koji and realizing that I don’t have to be limited in what I present on a printed page. Some of the people that I have in my life may look at me as if I am very strange, drunk or on drugs for my thoughts but not everyone in the world has such close-minded personal hang-ups and if they do? “Fuck `em,” is what my Grand Pappy used to say.
It’s been in me for a long time; wanting to be an author. I remember consciously thinking of this when I was in 4th grade. That would put me at 10. I also wanted to be a singer…well, that dream may be gone however my kids tell me I have the most beautiful voice in the world; that is just perfect with me.

I also have my friend, Hope, that has encouraged me to finally move on to college. I believe that there are people one meets that you feel the connection from past lives. There people that one is just meeting but feel that same connection with them just the same. Almost as if because mutually you know that you’ve been working up the Nirvana chain, you’ve felt them, maybe brushed by them; some tie is there. I think I’m going to have to work that out a little better *grin*

But about college, again, when I was a kid, younger than 10, I wanted to be a child psychologist NOT psychiatrist. I didn’t want to prescribe meds; the thought of having to dole out injections was horrifying to me!
I had no idea how I was going to do it, my parents made it clear that all they would/could give to me as a fledgling college student was a free room. However, just thinking why at age 8 or 9 I wanted to specifically be a child psychologist should explain how that was an impossible offer for me to take my folks up on!

holla@me posted by MobiusRazor at 06:31