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Sad.
I've been feeling very sad.
Sad about my back and the pain that I'm in. Sad about situations with family members. Sad.
I'm working on trying to get out of it. It's not easy.
I just feel so many things on my plate. So many things that are taking and will take time to resolve.
I feel hopeless and tired.
I am frustrated.
I've found out that anger is usually a secondary emotion in a situation. The primary emotional pain, such as hurt pride, shame, frustration, sadness, terror, or fear. Anger represents energy in motion emanating from the suppression of that pain.

And I've realized that it is sadness, frustration and fear that I am filled with right now.
So, I've recognized the emotions. Now I have to think of the why's completely and sort out where the emotions go.
If I can get that accomplished, I can be more clear to my dude and the kiddies as to why I've been struggling to be calm and nice.
It's not fair to them. For me to be in a bad mood. They know that I am in constant pain. But...I feel I should at least try to make an attempt to be pleasant.
Just so much on my plate.
And tonight is yet another sleepless night because of pain.
Why am I typing this right now?

I need to remember this. One day in the future, I will look back on this time and be able to feel peaceful.
Great Spirit, help me through this
holla@me posted by MobiusRazor at 02:42