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I just got back from Dr. Fishburns office. She's great. She specializes in Integrative Physical Medicine & Rehabilitation as well as Medical Acupuncture. She has been working on back mechanics with me. I am hyper-mobile (in laymans' terms, double jointed). It is all right to be hyper-mobile, but there is a draw back. Because my muscles have compensated to counter the severe pain from the accident, they have learned the positions. I have to unlearn them so that I can complete the healing process.

I'm getting antsy too. I want to get back to work. It's been crazy for me. I love my kids, but everyday with them and them with me...it's funny how people start getting irritated with one another. Not just me with them...I mean, they look at me and shake their heads when I start getting "grumpy." Do you have any idea how it is to have a kid call you grumpy...and they're correct? Grrr...but I still have to maintain my "objectivity" and retreat into my bedroom. They follow me. It's like they know...forcing me to be with their cheeriness...grrr (go away! I want to yell, but I have to remain passive, Lord knows I have no desire to scar my kids...haha).
So I think it would be better for us all if I got back to work. But I have to be better before I can do that. I am tired of feeling crummy. At least it's not constant like it was from 3/1 - 5/8. I get tired and achy after about 2 hours or so. Before it was 15-20 minutes. So there is improvement. Going to Physical Therapy since March: at first 5 days a week for 4 weeks, then 4 days, then 3 days...I'm down to two days a week.
With my car not working, it's been very hard to get to my appointments. *sigh*

But, I AM getting better! My only hope is that I get back to where I was and that I don't have permanent damage. This is no way to live. It hurts and there is no relief. Not even sleeping. Take it easy, work on back and body mechanics. It's slow going. No, my car wasn't totalled. My body was just twisted turned to look at on-coming traffic so's I could merge. The worst possible position all my doctors (three of them) have said. I am sooooo grateful that I didn't see the truck coming or I would have tensed up (more than straining to look at traffic) and I don't wanna think about what could have happened. It didn't. Whoopy.
holla@me posted by MobiusRazor at 17:03