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Observations of a Quixotic Femme Noire
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Warrior-woman; a Valkyrie. I'll always be yours. Always...and never. 
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Friday, May 31, 2002
Taurus, EARTH is your ruling element.
It brings out the practical, persistent, and stable nature of your personality. holla@me
Hello, Goodbye - Lennon/McCartney; Magical Mystery Tour
You say yes, I say no. You say stop and I say go go go, oh no. You say goodbye and I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello. I say high, you say low. You say why and I say I don't know, oh no. You say goodbye and I say hello (Hello Goodbye Hello Goodbye) hello hello (Hello Goodbye) I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello (Hello Goodbye Hello Goodbye) hello hello (Hello Goodbye) I don't know why you say goodbye (Hello Goodbye) I say goodbye. Why why why why why why do you say goodbye goodbye, oh no? You say goodbye and I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello. You say yes (I say "yes") I say no (but I may mean no.) You say stop (I can stay) and I say go go go (till it's time to go oh), oh no. You say goodbye and I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say goodbye Hello hello I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello hello. Hela heba helloa CHA CHA, hela... holla@me
Across The Universe - Lennon/McCartney; Let It Be
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup, They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind, Possessing and caressing me. Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world. Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes, They call me on and on across the universe, Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they Tumble blindly as they make their way Across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world. Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing Through my open views inciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on Across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world, Nothing's gonna change my world. Jai guru deva Jai guru deva Jai guru deva Jai guru deva ... holla@me Thursday, May 30, 2002
I have three idols in my life. They are who I aspire to be...well, one (if you KNOW me) IS me...I'm simply the female version...hahaha! Oh Well
1. Spiderman 2. Jean Valjean 3. Fred Flintstone I can't adhere to walls and shoot webbing out of my wrists (using a mechanical device I created or otherwise). Nor do I have the strength of 3x's my body weight (although that would be awesome). And I am a little afraid of heights (even though I LOVE roller coasters). I have been known to walk around in costumes. I am witty (in my head) and have learned learned to roll with the punches that life has given to me...coping is fun; it lets you see how strong and what your limitations are. I'm a geek and I'm proud of it. I understand the meaning of treating others as you would have others treat you. I've never been in prison a day let alone nineteen years. I've been poor and have struggled. I still am not extraordinarily strong (I mean, I can't pick a cart off of someone), but I can hold my own no problem. I don't fight unless that is the absolute last resort. I am mindful of my actions. And pretty much everything you can think about Fred Flintstone (loud, obnoxious, proud, hard worker, loyal, tempermental, etc.) is me...whew, that was hard to admit! holla@me Wednesday, May 29, 2002
I just got back from Dr. Fishburns office. She's great. She specializes in Integrative Physical Medicine & Rehabilitation as well as Medical Acupuncture. She has been working on back mechanics with me. I am hyper-mobile (in laymans' terms, double jointed). It is all right to be hyper-mobile, but there is a draw back. Because my muscles have compensated to counter the severe pain from the accident, they have learned the positions. I have to unlearn them so that I can complete the healing process.
I'm getting antsy too. I want to get back to work. It's been crazy for me. I love my kids, but everyday with them and them with me...it's funny how people start getting irritated with one another. Not just me with them...I mean, they look at me and shake their heads when I start getting "grumpy." Do you have any idea how it is to have a kid call you grumpy...and they're correct? Grrr...but I still have to maintain my "objectivity" and retreat into my bedroom. They follow me. It's like they know...forcing me to be with their cheeriness...grrr (go away! I want to yell, but I have to remain passive, Lord knows I have no desire to scar my kids...haha). So I think it would be better for us all if I got back to work. But I have to be better before I can do that. I am tired of feeling crummy. At least it's not constant like it was from 3/1 - 5/8. I get tired and achy after about 2 hours or so. Before it was 15-20 minutes. So there is improvement. Going to Physical Therapy since March: at first 5 days a week for 4 weeks, then 4 days, then 3 days...I'm down to two days a week. With my car not working, it's been very hard to get to my appointments. *sigh* But, I AM getting better! My only hope is that I get back to where I was and that I don't have permanent damage. This is no way to live. It hurts and there is no relief. Not even sleeping. Take it easy, work on back and body mechanics. It's slow going. No, my car wasn't totalled. My body was just twisted turned to look at on-coming traffic so's I could merge. The worst possible position all my doctors (three of them) have said. I am sooooo grateful that I didn't see the truck coming or I would have tensed up (more than straining to look at traffic) and I don't wanna think about what could have happened. It didn't. Whoopy. holla@me
Ever felt like you're in a BAD TV-Show drama? I do. Funny how when you watch TV dramas they always show people having major moments, whether they be positive or negative....you know, like Suzie is 8-1/2 months pregnant and she and her sig-other are celebrating because they just got hitched then they get into a car accident, they all get Medi-Vac'd to Shock Trauma, she goes into early labor...black screen...
...to be continued... Next week you find her dude is dead, she's in a coma...BUT, the baby is fine. It doesn't really work that way does it? I think it does. I think life throws shit in every direction and then "someone" has to be watching to see how we deal with it. The house is still great...we just opened our pool...Guin's b-day party is this Sunday...my car has been broken down for 2 months, we took it to our mechanic and we just found out that to get it fixed will cost $1030...I'm still outta work because of being rear-ended 3/1/2002( i.e., NO income from me right now `cept disability)...Bren is doing well with Home-Schooling; we'll be finishing up soon 1st grade, Baris' band is doing great!, they are going to be in a "battle of the bands" this month...positiveyada negativeyada yada. As soon as I get back to work, things will be fine...money wise I mean. We're doing well other than that...and the fact that I can't get to my doctors appointments to get well because I have no mode of transportation. I have been relying on the generosity of others..and thank goodness I have many generous friends and family. I mean, it can't be my charming personality..ha! But, I'm sure I've typed it before...I'm glad to experience anything that "life" has to throw at me. It just reminds me that the world really isn't centered around me all the time, but sometimes...it does *grin* holla@me Friday, May 03, 2002
Christy and Dani...my wonderful bestest friends...y'all better get yourselves to my house on Sunday like y'all said and help me get my house together. I'll have the wine, beer and food.
Ooooh is this gonna be a party? Barry'll watch the kiddies D-, he love your little man and our cherubs will have a ball with him. Of course the first thing we did was put the socket protectors in for the little ones we have over *smile* holla@me
Whew, we've moved in. I get no time online anymore...oh well. Life is too much fun and exciting to find/make time to get here. But if there is anything I can't type enough, it's my regret that I don't put something in my journal on a regular basis. The only one who can do that is me...hmmm.
The house is GREAT! Maybe I'll find time to put some more detail in. holla@me |
