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Friday, November 30, 2001
the fragile: NIN - THE FRAGILE
she shines
fragile
i won't let you fall apart
i won't let you fall apart
it's something i have to do
holla@me Sunday, November 25, 2001
I was soooo, hungry yesterday. I took the kids to McyD's so they could eat and play in the PlayPlace...they love that. I was soooo hungry. I couldn't believe it. It was sick. I ate a BigMac meal and then I actually went and got another sandwich...a QtrLb'er w/cheez... and I really went back about an hour later and got another QtrLb!!! That is insane!!! I HATE McDONALD'S FOOD!!!!! But I was sooo hungry, I couldn't believe how hungry I was and I didn't want to go home because the kids love playing with the other kids in the PlayPlace...I can't blame them. It was my doing...I rammed 3 fuckin' nasty-ass fastfood burgers down my gullet...no one else did it for me. Do I feel fulfilled? Satisfied? No, I got home and at 11pm, I ate soft tacos with ham and light cheddar and tons of pico de gallo (yummm) and romaine lettuce!!!
I ate like I'm gonna die tomorrow...I hope I don't. *chucklin' to myself...what I get for not being hungry and eatin' light all last week* Oh well...i musta needed all that processed, fatty, cholesterol riddled, artery clogging food...and of course, wash it down with a Diet Coke! holla@me
We have bought a homeschooling curriculum from Calvert School: Homeschooling provider since 1906.
I called and got information about having my son enrolled at a Montessori School. However, they stated that SIX year old children were to OLD for their method of teaching. Odd, being that in the state of Maryland...children from the age of five through sixteen must attend school, with a one year provision at age five...meaning, PARENTS/GUARDIANS are MANDATED to have their children in school by SIX. This is very important. The "admissions contact" did not care when I told her that I had a child being stifled by the Baltimore County School System...she merely stated that he was "too OLD" for their particular school and other schools may allow him to attend. Other Montessori schools used the AMS (American Montessori Society) as their reason for not allowing him to attend their school: these particular schools want children at the ages between 2 and 5 for whatever reason. It doesn't matter...after thinking about it, I truly believe that Dr. Maria Montessori 1929 ~ 1952: Founding President AMI (Association Montessori Internationale) did not feel that only certain aged children were entitled to being allowed to learn in a hands-on environment with plenty of leeway for emotional and personal growth...but for all children. Who would have thought that her idea would be commercialized to the point that a boy or a girl was not allowed to attend such a school simply because he/she was "too old." I really don't know what to think about that...but again, no matter. I've had in my heart and mind, before we had the children that I would home teach them. I knew that there would be opposition to how I believe children should learn. Oddly enough, I have always held in my heart that children should learn hands-on...that is the best way of learning firsthand; to be able to "see" how the theories actually work; that would also allow a child to learn at their pace. Because when one comes down to it...all children WANT to learn...we are programmed by WHOMEVER...The Great Spirit...God...The Alien...instinctual; internal wonder and desire to learn and understand what goes on around us. If people, children are allowed to learn at their own pace, they would be adolescence, teenagers, adults...humans that would be their own people, think of things on their own, come up with a new concept that will make changes. All people are taught in school to wait on others, after a test, you must wait until everyone else is done. If you understand the lesson being taught in class, you still must wait until the bell rings. If a teacher is only one dimensional in their understanding of a concept, you must accept what that teacher says as law or you will fail. You must think for yourself on your own time and GODFORBID you come out and say it lest you are thought of as weird or a nerd or just left out...abnormal by the commercialized society... anyway, enough of my WEIRD thoughts...I'm scary. So, here we are. A 1.5 year delay but nevertheless, I am beginning where I thought would be best for my children from the beginning. I have learned many things from the experience of my son being in school. The negative is obvious...it allows only "normal" people a place to learn. Don't get me wrong, the school system can be wonderful but it very much disallows thought or action not deemed appropriate. What child is appropriate?! oh well, I'm getting off subject again... I will talk of the positives: Bren is a wonderfully popular kid in school. He finds playmates and interacts beautifully with most children he meets. Some kids do give him a hard time, but it is amazing to see once they interact with him, how he wins them over. It fills my heart. It makes me tear up. His Kindergarten teacher was a woman that saw his potential. She saw his intelligence and believed that he was capable of learning higher concepts and used his talents. She really did guide him in a way that was necessary, but allowed him to be himself. There are some wonderful teachers that do wonderful things for their students. Those men and women are roses amongst the thorns working in a system that tries its damnedest to teach so many without really challenging their students...it's mostly for the test scores...a percentage that shows the worth of American children in an International learning race. Thank goodness for these few...they give the children they teach hope and give some the yearning to teach the same message. Those teachers are a gift. School showed Bren that there is more out there than just what he wants to learn...what he saw makes him want to learn those concepts as well. Bren shows his sister what he has learned and tries to teach. My dude and I, as well as my mother, have renewed confidence that we can teach our kids...my mom will only help with review work...she wants to maintain her "Grandma" status, and I understand that completely. I think that is an excellent idea and decision on her part. We can do this. I hope to have Bren and Guin learn at home until they are about 13...we want them to go to High School and of course college. They can also take online college courses at any age. And if that is something that they would like to do, as further education to what they will be learning from 5 - 13...then that is great and we'll support and help them. This is exciting and of course a little scary...fear of the unknown. I know that we will do a great job. This is too important to allow pride or any vanity to taint our vision of what is best for our children. They are our future, and more precious than any possessions I own...or any thought that one should have about us or our decision or our family. We want nothing but the best for our children and their future...because it is our future too. So I wish love and happiness on this new journey we shall embark upon. I'm still going to continue to work. At least I work part time. That may change to less hours soon...B- wants to have me stay home...but it isn't possible right now. Besides, I need to work. I like knowing that I am contributing monetarily to the household in some capacity. Hahaha..maybe a 10 hr a week job...enough to buy groceries and clothes. *grin* I dunno, I like my away time from the house and family...it keeps me sane! holla@me Saturday, November 17, 2001
My daughter said to me today, while I was takin' my shower (she sometimes likes to come in and stand in the "sauna" I create and talk):
Mommy, you know what all kids like. Thank You. You're my special Mommy. that felt good! holla@me Monday, November 12, 2001
Even with a three day weekend, it's never enough!
Having the School Modify for my Son Our son Brendon has been an amazing child. He started walking at 10months...needless to say, he's done a lot of things early. He taught himself to sound out words and read little words and sentences at 2, reading older kids books at 4 and is reading and sounding out real well at his current age 6. He's great with math and is a little sponge, trying to sort and figure things out. Our boy DOES have ADHD as far as "psychological definition" goes. I was diagnosed when I was a kid as Hyperactive/Hyper Kinetic (now called ADHD). I don't look at that as a problem. I'm not concerned that my kid bursts into song or covers/uncovers his ears quickly to have different hearing perceptions or blinking and looking around the room to see differently. I roll with it because kids are kids and he WILL grow out of it. It's not hurting anyone. If he does these things when it's not convenient, we just say, "Bren, now isn't the time for that." Simple. Sure if we tell him to do something, he doesn't always register it or do it right away. It's simple to have him make eye contact, ask if he heard and then if he doesn't do it, remind him by asking, "Bren, what did I just ask you to do?" We try to challenge him with new sights and sounds and surroundings. He loves it. We love to show him the new experiences. If he has a hard time focusing, we look to see what he IS focusing on and eliminate it smile. We have taught, and of course, still are teaching him responsibility and consequences for his actions and behavior. Not all at the same time and not the things he will grow out of (i.e. dancing, singing, sound effects) but more so human awareness: compassion, understanding, empathy, concern, common sense...life learning that is important to interaction in relationships. Ok... Bren is in 1st grade. I was going to home teach but his kindergarten experience was FABULOUS. I thought that if there would be any time that I would have to fight the school system, it would be his first year. Not so. His current teacher has a split class of 1st and 2nd graders which Brendon's K. teacher recommended him in because she saw how smart and capable of learning he was/is and felt that he would be able to take from that environment. First, the teacher started pinning notes to Brendon. I quickly solved that by telling her that it embarrassed him and all she need do it put notes in his book bag. She wasn't happy, and I thought that odd. We had a conference with his 1st grade teacher. She sees he's very bright, but his "behaviors" prevent him from learning to his potential. His teacher doesn't think that Bren understands her or comprehends what is going on in his surroundings at school. Even though Bren has completed his Dolch sight words to 3rd grade and he is in a special spelling word group (that she informed us none of the other 1st graders are doing), she believes that Brendon is only memorizing his words, not that he sounds them out and knows their definitions. This is of course after explaining to Bren their meanings and working with him on his homework. She told us that despite his reading level that he doesn't comprehend what he reads. I told her that simply wasn't true and maybe Bren was tired of the testing and didn't want to do it anymore. Then she went into Brendon's "behaviors." Have we noticed any of these things at home? She's concerned because he could hurt himself and possibly mean that there is something else wrong with him. 1.Closing his left eye and wiggling a pencil near his right eye. (he could poke out his eye) 2.Blinking and looking around the room. (maybe he's having seizures) 3.Making Noises (1st graders don't do that) 4.Getting out of his seat (this is disruptive) 5.Paying attention to other things besides her lesson 6.Talking out in class 7.Not finishing assignments (she says refusing to complete them) 8.Doesn't pay attention to his surroundings 9.Handwriting terrible (that can be a mental defect that he can't press hard enough on the paper) 10.Forgetful with directions 11.Doesn't give eye contact when talking to him 12.Isn't organized - can't pack his book bag (she flat out refused to pack or teach him to pack it) 13.Playing with scissors, looking at them with his right eye while left eye closed (she was "still" thinking about taking them away from him) We told her of course Bren has done these things at home...he has ADHD and no they weren't concerns and there is an explanation for most. -Brendon makes noises because of the video games he plays as well as music he likes. I still do that. -Brendon needs to be reminded with doing things. -Brendon's handwriting is bad with a pencil because he's used to writing with a pen. And we only gave him printer paper to write/color/draw with...no lines. -Brendon has always had his book bag packed for him...in Kindergarten. We didn't know he was expected to pack his bag himself at school, so we never taught him. -NO! Brendon is not having Petit-Mal seizures and if she knew what they were, she'd know that the subject experiencing them doesn't move their head around trying to look at things while their eyes open and close because they are unaware they are even having a seizure! (that really ticked us off! grrr) -And we laughed a little bit and said that if Bren hurt himself with safety scissors (no sharp points), he'd only do it once. (Yeah, we know probably an inappropriate comment, but after hearing all the negative about our boy with very little positives and most of them are just because he has an active imagination...we had to laugh at something!)All she need do is tell him not to play with his scissors because he could hurt himself and he won't. (She then rescinded and stated that he had never played with his scissors that way again.) -I told her I didn't find ANY of these things a concern, or a "safety issue". We gave them some pointers: if he starts to do things other that what she told him, ask him what he should be doing. We were promptly told that she doesn't want to do this. We think that his teacher has a hard time looking past his "behaviors" and THIS prevents her from teaching him to his potential. It's not that we want to label our child either, but it's easier to go by what is "out there" than to try to explain that he's gifted. They believe he's very smart from what his K. teacher says. But we don't feel that our opinion or observations of our own child is being listened to or taken into consideration...yet. We're now thinking of home teaching again. We first want to give them information from the borntoexplore site and Classroom Modification (a lot of which were suggestions that we gave that maybe if she sees that we aren't just trying to be overly permissive parents, she may implement), but is this worth trying? We don't want our child stifled (and he does have a younger sister that doesn't have ADHD and is just as bright, but as all children, in different ways *grin*) because of a biased teacher/school system that wants children to all act the same way...not leaving any room to "look outside the box." Maybe I'm just posting this because I need to vent. But I need help, other options. How can I get this teacher to look at his positives more and the things that he can't really change overnight with less criticisms? Can I do this? I don't want to sacrifice my kid to "educate" a system that while they say they want to work with him, at least one doesn't...and that is the one that is the most important right now? Help? Advice? Tell me I’m a nutty parent? Whatever…just give me some feedback. Thanks */*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/* Jan U.- Homeschool Is the Way to Go Hi, I am in a hurry, but you will find lots of helpful info on my web page: Positively ADD: Parenting & Unschooling http://www.mindspring.com/~jupton/jan1.html Also, check out www.hslda.org and join their org, as in IL there have been lots of recent cases of illegal efforts to stomp down on homeschoolers. You are not nuts! You just happen to have a highly intelligent, active kid--Join the "club." Cheers, Jan U. Tami This sounds so familiar! Since you just want imput- here's mine. In my experience public school was not the place for a kid who thinks differently than the majority. They expect "good little soldiers", but I guess you're finding that out. My son had some very good teachers who could see his abilities and appreciate them. They supplied positive reinforcement and were usually rewarded with cooperation. Those years he was pretty happy in school. There were other years that the teachers just "didn't get him". These times were rough for him. First, they were quick to use negative inforcement, so he was always just waiting for something to happen. Their attitdes were really affecting everything, his work, his creativity, and more mportantly his sense of accompolisment and self esteem. If he could have gone through school with his 2nd or 4th grade teachers, it would've been a breeze.His 4th grade teacher said to me " the rule is you only get 1 paper, but when he says he can't find it, I know it would be like finding a needle in a haystack in his desk, so I just hand him another one, problem solved." In 5th grade, same problem but the teachers answer is " he needs to be ready for junior high, so we can't make exceptions, besides by now he shouldn't have such a problem with organization". I'm rambling, but the point I'm trying to get at is, I don't think the teachers for the most part have the time or inclination to see or work with individual differances. Another thing that really bothers me is , in our public school they talk about honoring diversity and accepting differances, but when it comes down to actually doing something to honourand accept they just won't do it. They talk the talk, but don't walk the walk if ya know what I mean. We finally gave up the fight and found a private school that really does honor diversity, and emphasizes positive reinforcement. It's been the best move we ever made. After 5th grade, we just couldn't send him back to face the wolves. Sounds harsh, but that's really what it felt like, and we're his parents, it's our job to look out for his best interest, and future success. They were more interested in thier own goal of making sure everyone fit into thier 'one size fits all' round holes. Anyway, at the lower grade levels I think the teacher makes all the differance. Young kids can't always put into words how the attitudes around them are affecting them. By 5th grade , our son was telling us that his teachers had "bad attitudes" or "attitude problems", and we couldn't disagree with him, but even though he could verbalize it and understand it, thier attitudes were still a great influence on him, and it wasn't for the better. I think if you can just find a good teacher you're ok! Tracy- Schooling Hi What you have written rings very true, we to have had similiar problems last year with my 8yo. His teacher was very negative and by mid semester we had some real problems. We ask for him to be moved to another class. But this was refused saying our son had to learn to except the situation. By the end of the school year he was suspended for refusing to leave the class over and incident with another child in which he says he didnt do. We decided to try a new school together with home schooling this is working very well his academic levels are excellent and he is excelling in areas that he was struggling in. All l can say is get him out of the negativety it will do more harm than good. Are you able to change classes, or find another school? We have found home schooling combined with a new school has work well the teachers involved with our son. Hope you can find what suits your son dont give in. Sabine - Schooling I am having the same problem with my son's teacher. Daniel had no problems in first grade because the teacher gave him something harder when he saw Daniel had no problems, If Daniel was unconcentrated they agreed to find an area in the classroom where he could work quietly. It worked. This year all I get is Daniel doesn't want to listen, etc. I unfortunately don't have the allowance to home-school my child so I am looking into other schools where he will be encouraged instead of put down all the time. Definately do something whether you change classes or home-school him because although we have food intolerences and Daniel is no longer hyperactive at home, School is a torture for him and he really hates it. Hes great on weekends and during vacations but is extremely moody during the week, starting from the point he comes home and has to do homework. We have tried all kinds of meetings, even with the doctor and the therapist and the teacher but nothing has changed. The teacher is obviously only seeing behavior and no academic responses. Our teacher says Daniel can do so well when he can concentrate but yet it takes her 20 minutes to quiet down the class to begin. If you have the opportunity to home-school definately do it. The atmosphere where your child is in now will be long term extremely harmful as I have found out with mine. Trisha- I hope you don't mind... I copied your posting and based it on to a few family and friends. We found some of the things you wrote of humorous, especially anyone that knows our son. I home school and good experience or not, I was not going to take a risk management approach to his first years in education. I really, really got a charge out of the pencil and holding hand over eye thing. I mean, this is the stereotypical little boy syndrome in a boring class or having a boring moment in class and finding something, ANYTHING, to be interested in. Besides, in fifth grade they told us to do that experiment to find our blind spot between near and far sightedness... go figure maybe you got a little Einstein there. I have nightmares at my house about scizzors. Mostly because someone is always leaving the adult ones out. Luckily no one has lost eyelashes, ears, nosis, appendages or suffered puncture wounds and has only practiced cutting mostly on paper although I did suffer one Christmas. I bought one of those tape dispensers that have a band around your wrist. Roger nicely cut up the band and left the plastic dispenser. Now, let me tell you... that was a real treat to purchase that gizmo and I forefitted other things. It was the shock and horror that he "discovered" how sharp his scizzors really are. I didn't find it as humorous as I do now. I personally think home schooling is the most natural and positive thing you can do for your child, provided you feel you can do it or at least try it. Kids expect to learn from us and even have it preconceived notion all their lives. It isn't until the back-to-school marketing and mandatory institutionalization of our children at age 5 comes into play that generally they become aware of anything different. I make exception to the daycare driven populace those kids perceive as always being taught by somone else quickly and find the opposite as strange because Mom and Dad are only "there" at designated times. I think your child is whitty and smart. I think this teacher is obnoxiously evil in the face of compassion to a child his age. I think if I did choose and had to live through this situation I would have someone's head on a platter. I wish someone would ban these teachers from making these diagnosis. The problem is, that is part of the community effort and protocol to administering drug intervention and getting a diagnosis. The shouldn't say see your doctor... but, see the teacher she knows everything just ask her. brenda - Boy does that sound like my son we are going through the same thing with our 7 year old. we thought grade 2 would be a better year and here we go again. I mentioned to the Assistant Principal that B- and I are already looking at moving Bren to a school that teaches using the Montessori Method (An Introduction to Montessori Philosophy & Practice: Age 3 - 12+ Years). I told her that we feel the Public School System only teach structure and rigidity to children more so than Math, Reading, Writing, Science, etc. We don't believe that any child, but especially Bren's personality type (similar to my personality type) should have to learn under confinement. That prevents learning and stifles emotional growth. The Asst. Principal was sorry to hear that (I do like her, although I think she tries too hard and backing-up faulty staff) and said that in the meantime , they wanted to work with him until he goes...and then asked if we would approve an Intelligence Assessment. We aren't sure if we want this school system, that doesn't work for kids as much as they expect kids to work for them, to do any assessment. Montessori schools do their own assessment on prospective students. *Sigh* Just another obstacle. We don't want Bren to be stifled in learning...or he may not be interested in learning ever again. We don't want any harm done to his self-esteem...that is Our job to do. *grin* We want Bren to be able to learn uninhibited with other peoples "moral" standards and judgements...he will have a lifetime to be involved and work on that. Anyways, it's no big deal, it can be easily remedied. I'm glad we never came into this thinking that kids and looking out for their welfare would be easy. After having nothing but a hard time myself in public schools (put in remedial reading at school and walking home afterward reading Stephen King and Dean R. Koontz novels), I try to look at it objectively, but also know it's a numbers game. {It took a while for me to get out of the pigeon hole that I was shoved into by the system...first with my CAT tests scoring in the 12th grade+ level for reading and writing; 8th grade for math...while in 3rd & 4th grade. I was finally placed in GATE (gifted and talented education, blahblahblah). Junior Honor Society, partial scholarships, acceptance into a college preparatory high school, Honor Society, Awards for writing, etc., yak yak yak}...I know that my son has the same trials and tribulations ahead of him. I just want him (and Guin) to know upfront that he is smart. He is capable and that he can do anything academically that other kids do...maybe (probably, as the ego in me rises) better than the other kids do. Here I go, sounding like the proud, protective MaMa. You're DAMN right! My kids have an excellent temperment. They are wonderful and B- and I sit back amazed that we were given these gifts. Gentle, sweet, kind, intelligent, observant, empathic and considerate...we have been blessed and we know it. We certainly couldn't have done this good of a job by ourselves (although it would be nice to take the credit)! It can only be a blessing. holla@me Thursday, November 08, 2001
This morning, walking to work, I noticed a bee. Not too unusual, except it's November. But it's been a mild Autumn, so it's not too much of a stretch to think of a bee living. It just made me think where it was going. Where was it going? It seemed to hover because I was walking right behind it. The bee glided through the air at the perfect height for me to see its entire yellow and black body; wings glistening in the morning sun. What could it's destination be? Did it know of a secret place where it was warm with fresh blooming flowers?
I wanted to follow it. I want to be warm in the sun and lie down on soft grass, smelling the earth and flowers. I wanted to watch that bee, buzzing busily about. It was a pretty sight and reminded me of spring. It reminded me to look at all the beautiful occurrences around me. It reminded me that being reflective can have many positives. I think I need to clear my head of a lot of situations that are in it. Start thinking about the relativity of people juxtaposed to my life. Time to simplify myself. Get organized internally. Start to follow my advice to "Take it light." There are so many excellent people, occasions, learning opportunities, positive things, going on in my life...I truly feel blessed...I have no time to concentrate on the negative. Not that life should be about only looking forward. I don't believe that. I believe that everyday should be savored...good or bad. Reflection...meditation on what to do better or how it was just perfect or what should be avoided or simply what never to do again. haha...I know I seem jumbled...but I don't have much time. I have to get positive...more positive. See the beauty around me, recognize it, embrace it, be thankful for it. And all because of a bee. holla@me Thursday, November 01, 2001
I really am a cold bitch.
My friend C-'s boyfriend is in the City Police Force. He showed up at a crime scene where a man that was obviously drunk, claimed he was assaulted. Now the police did not believe this, however there was blood everywhere. They think he fell off his porch. Well, when her bf got there, he noticed something on his boots, looked down and saw it was a piece of thorn bush and kicked it off. In the process of doing so, the bush landed on his hand and punctured him. He thought nothing of it, then went back to check it. There was blood, presumably the drunk males, all over it. The man is Hepatitis C positive. The police officer is now on HIV preventative meds and of course as there is no cure or vaccine for Hep C...it is being researched to slow the process of this disease. I feel terrible about this...for my friend. I wouldn't wish that on anyone, and she's very scared. BUT (it always works that way with me)... He is a police officer. He should have gone into that crime scene (any crime scene for that matter) with caution. He shouldn't have been kickin' anything around honestly. Plus, he arrived AFTER, not ON the scene. There was blood everywhere...he should have known, out of sheer self-preservation, to look at it as a bio-hazard situation. He says he blames himself...HE SHOULD! No one told him to be careless with his life. He's had training on this and he failed to use it. My dude works at a Packaging supply company...basically, they make trash. A temp-employee was watching the paper-roll machine. Apparently, he was stoned on dope (heroine for y'all with little street knowledge) and reached his hand toward the machine and got his arm wrenched out of its socket and it "meated" up his fingers, hand and arm pretty good. Of course, there was blood everywhere. People called the paramedics (911), got the man to stop freakin' out, USING GLOVES FROM THE FIRST AID KIT, and then got bleach to throw on the blood. They were worried about HIV, AIDS or any disease transferred from bodily fluids. They are not in a job type that deals with violence on a day to day basis. They have not been trained to react to a bio-hazard. Yet they knew enough...or I should say had enough self-preservation intuition, that they took precautions to make sure they didn't get blood on themselves or spread it around the warehouse. My dude was RIGHT THERE! It really got to everyone...to see that and then why the fuck did that guy do that after being told not too. Not only that, the paper roll machine, that is two 1 ton rolls pressed together with the paper in between. AND it's hydraulic, so there is much more pressure applied. But there it was. I dunno, I guess my point is he is trained to be wary, they weren't and they seemed to take better care of themselves and each other than he did of himself. And now, he's scared, taking meds that's gonna make him very sick and his chick is terrified because she doesn't know what's gonna happen. So, I'm cold because I'm having a very hard time finding compassion for a person that "should have known better." Not just that, this is his SECOND time being in a biohazard situation where he was compromised! I either would have made damn sure to take all necessary precautions or gotten out of a life threatening profession. But this is his dream, his passion and his right. I'd just think someone would be a little more careful in that profession. holla@me
Oh, and I know that Hallowwen is over, but I love Halloween. I love to dress up in costume and assume that role. People find that very novel. *rolling eyes*
Anyways, I'm gonna put a pic up as soon as I get some sleep, get the kids up, ready for school and Gramma's house, go to work and work, TaeKwonDo class, get home, help with dinner, clean the rattie cages, watch "A History of Britain II" and then a break to myself. All in all, that isn't much to do...it's a matter of doing it in a timely fashion and not burn my day away. holla@me
Well, finally, after spending $15 on an allergy shot...we have amitriptyline (a Tricyclic Antidepressant sometimes used for anti-anxiety) for Shaka-Bear. It's not spending the money, it's spending money on something that we had already discussed. She said that once he was healed, they were gonna put him on Buspar (a psychotropic drug definitely used for anti-anxiety) or amitriptyline. Then she decided one more allery shot and if after 2 days he was still scratching...just call and we could pick up the meds. So what happened? That night after getting the injection, Shaka started scratching. Boy, what a surprise. So, he has his meds now, and I'm pleased. He is acting much better. Unfortunately, she said that he could be on amiltriptyline forever. I don't want him on medical perscription forever. I don't like giving him 1/4 of a pill daily. She said with Buspar, he would be on in for 2 weeks to a month and probably never need it again..only for any further modification, but not a lifetime situation. Her reason for not doing this 4 months later (see prior blog entries), because he would be out of it...a little fur-blob and he's such a cool cat, we don't really want him to lose his personality.
If his personality would only be altered for 2weeks to a month and then he probably wouldn't need it again...YES, I WOULD RATHER HAVE THAT ALTERNATIVE! Shut off those serotonin uninhibitors! He doesn't need them right now. I want my baby healthy and happy and functioning without life maintenance drugs. He's doing better like i said, but still scratching...a little rough sometimes, but it will take a while for the drugs to kick in effectively...so i've been told. I don't believe my cat is depressed. I think he started scratching and now can't stop. whatever, i guess it just hope it stops and we don't have to continue meds till he dies. Again, we shall see. I want my Shaka-Bear better, whole; soon. holla@me |
